It feels like some people are so good at living life, and I’m just like nahhhh.
I feel like I’ve lost a lot of my me-ness, my general excitement for life? Not in a depressed way, but in a way that I don’t have things I’m excited about way. I don’t know how to explain it, but I just feel a little lost, and I hate the thought of my life just to continue on being like this. I also know that I need to be the one to change this, but I’m just not sure how at the moment.
I worked all day yesterday and I had a really bad night a work mostly because of one of my managers, so I think I might just be hanging on to a bit of that.
My hours at work make it very hard to go out after, but I’m really going to try to make more of an effort to see people. I’ve always been able to function on my own, but I’m starting to feel like it’s really important for me to start making more of an effort. I’ve become “meh” about too many things, and I need to start changing that.
That being said, I did bite the bullet and going out with that guy this week and he’s invited me out again tomrorow, I did apply to an internship, and I did force myself to workout this week even though I was feeling very lazy, and I’m about to do the same, because doing stuff is good, and I need to take a shower so I can go to a friends later, but I am not about to do that until I have worked out!