elle-thinspired tagged me in this selfie challenge! 6 selfies that make me feel beautiful/attractive! So now I’m tagging: steen-to-be-a-marathoner prettymeokay thebusylife taffyflavors

Who am I to pass up the excuse to post 6 pictures of myself that I think are cute anddddd I’ve only got the white girl, head-tilt 50% of the time ;)

Pre workout or post workout? Sad that you can’t even tell.
Spoiler alert: It was pre.
Today’s workout was really good despite the fact that I started getting this pain in my stomach about halfway through. I waited awhile after I ate to workout, so I’m not exactly sure what was the cause. Either way, I feel like had that pain not been causing me to continuously stop and start up again, I actually feel like I would’ve done really well. Guess we’ll find out for sure tomorrow ;)

Pre workout or post workout? Sad that you can’t even tell.

Spoiler alert: It was pre.

Today’s workout was really good despite the fact that I started getting this pain in my stomach about halfway through. I waited awhile after I ate to workout, so I’m not exactly sure what was the cause. Either way, I feel like had that pain not been causing me to continuously stop and start up again, I actually feel like I would’ve done really well. Guess we’ll find out for sure tomorrow ;)

I know for health purposes I should throw out what is left of this cake, but I don’t know if I have it in me to throw away a cake that was made to look just like the cake Hagrid have Harry. I’m just not that person.
Ps. I think it’s clear, but Kersh is my nickname :/

I know for health purposes I should throw out what is left of this cake, but I don’t know if I have it in me to throw away a cake that was made to look just like the cake Hagrid have Harry. I’m just not that person.

Ps. I think it’s clear, but Kersh is my nickname :/

My birthday got in the way of my renewed motivation, but I’m back at it today.

The day started off a little strange since I didn’t really have breakfast food, and ended up eating my first meal pretty late in the day, but otherwise, I’d say today was a success. 

I went out and pick up some ingredients so I can be a healthy gal this week, and for dinner tonight I made a stir fry type dish with quinoa, tofu, carrots, peppers, onions, kale, and pineapple. It turned out really well, and there is a bunch leftover for at least two more meals.

I’ve decided since it’s Monday, and because I started late/missed a few of last weeks workouts for T25, I’m going to start from the beginning, today and really commit to the program. I’m sick of being frustrated with myself, and being mostly happy. I want to be entirely happy in every aspect of my life, and I know overcoming this weight will help me get there. I’m stick of my thighs being a size bigger than my calves, and I’m sick of feeling self conscious. I’m sick of seeing people around me succeed, but lacking the motivation to do something for myself. I’ve essentially taken a year off from actively trying to lose weight, and the attempts I did make were sad at best. I’m ready to recommit. I’m ready to try new things. I’m ready to work hard, and become the person I’ve been waiting around to become.

….Sorry, was that a little much at the end?

It’s actually so sad how sore my legs are 😁

I did it!

I didn’t think I would, and I didn’t think I could since I was so sore, but I did it!

I actually feel way better.

I decided to start doing T25 again, and luckily day two involves a lot of stretching. 

Like I said yesterday, my weight has been flip flopping all over the place. Two weeks ago I was somewhere between 167 and 170 so, I’m going to try to do my best to eat well and stick to the workouts before I hop back on the scale (or at least before I let the number I see start to phase me ahah).

I found a bunch of recipes for really heathy bowls that Ii can put together that I’m excited about, and I’m also working on getting a 9-5 position at work. It won’t be immediate, but I really excited to be able to really start cooking again since restaurant hours don’t really give you a real dinner time.

Anyway, that’s all for now. I’m trying to be present on tumblr without becoming obsessed at this point. I’m just happy to be moving again :)

I’ll be more interactive soon, I’m sure.

Today I worked out for the first time since before my grandma died (which was mid April). It feels like kind of a big deal since I’ve been try to push myself to do this for weeks now. I’d plan it, and then I’d just never do it. So thats something.

Other things:

1. My birthday is on Friday

2. I went on birth control, and since then, instead constantly maintaining, my wait seems to yoyo a lot more. I’m still more or less where I was, but I’d say I’ve gained about 3 pounds. One huge difference I’ve noticed though, is when I actually eat well my weight also drops a lot faster than it did before. It used to take a lot longer to drop back down even if it was just water weight. So that’s something.

3. I’m working on becoming the 9-5 host at work. I think some structure to my life will help me.

4. The magazine I was writing fore is dead, there is a new one that I am able to work for, but I’m really torn about trying to continue writing a place I’m not sure I’m fully on board with just for a paycheque, or trying to get another job/potentially another internship to get some experience at some place more established and get my name out there that way.

Ohboyohboyohboyohboy

It’s funny in an entirely unfunny way that, when I am technically the smallest I have ever been, that I feel so big.

At this point I don’t even want to tell you about my plans. I just want to do them, and make changes, and fucking be proactive.

I’m not going to plan. I’m just going to tell you about what happens.

I can tell you that I’m done waiting to magically love exercising again. It has been so long. I’m not going to love it for awhile, but it’s a thing I have to do, and it’s a good thing. Waiting to magically wait to was my subconscious way of giving myself permission not to, I just didn’t realize it.

Someone—it was my best friend mind you—referred to the articles I’ve been writing as “mature without sounding pretentious.” I like this

I don’t like how little I’ve been around lately. I don’t like that my response to my 167 weigh in last week was to throw it all away again.

I want to start exercising again, but I feel so busy.

on Sunday, I’m heading home and I’m going to hangout with my family for a few days, before a head to Chicago (!!!!). Then, when I come home, I have a wedding to go to, an extra day at home, and then I’ll head back to Toronto. My goal is to just do the best I can until I get back, and then really throw myself into an exercise plan. I know it’s bad to plan to do things, because it’s hard to follow through, but I know I just really won’t have time this week. I’d rather wait and actually give it my all. At this point, I’m not even going to bother saying anything about trying to eat healthy, because I’m going on vacation.

Sp I guess what I’m saying is, I’ve not been doing well, as far as being a fitblr goes, but I am for the most part happy, and I am excited to go on vacation, but I’m also very excited to really start up a routine for this summer.

Okay, hi.

I’know it’s been awhile.

For the past week or so, I’ve just been feeling off. Not sick, but my body just feels weird. I was getting a lot of headaches, and feeling dizzy and bloated all the time.

Truthfully, I haven’t started working out but I’ve stopped sleeping for 12 hours at a time, so that’s definite progress. 

A few days ago, I was in a pretty bad mood, because I keep thinking about all these things I want to do, all these goals I set for myself, and I never seem to follow through. Since then, I’ve decided to really take things one day at a time. I don’t want to plan anymore. I know what I want, but I don’t want to give myself timelines anymore. I’ll get there when I get there, and think I’ll be happier for this in the long run. I have been trying to be really good about my eating. Surprise, it hasn’t been perfect, but it’s been much better than it was while my grandma was sick/after she died.

Lately I’ve been getting up between 10:30 and 11 which is a pretty big improvement for me, but I’m still working at it, and I’ve been doing more during the day which has been an incredible mood booster. I can only assume things will continue to get better for here if I continue to keep doing what I’m doing.

Kristen, 22, Toronto, On. SW: 213.
CW: 170.
GW: 135-140?