I did it. I worked out :)
I missed yesterday’s if I’m being honest. A friend of mine is going to Korea for 3 weeks and I absolutely needed to talk to my friend who’s moving and so I spent the day doing those things instead. I feel a little bad about missing a day, but I don’t regret it.
So, since yesterday was supposed to be my Monday for T25, I did mondays workout today, Im keeping tomorrow’s normal since it’s the total body workout, and I’m going to do Wednesday’s and Thursday’s together on Wednesday, Friday’s workout on Thursday, and then I’ll be all caught up and on track and where I wanted to be.
I am so tempted to check the scale even though realistically I won’t see much difference, and even though I’d probably be better off just not checking for the full month, but I’m really going to try to stick it out until Saturday, which is when I believe I had set my goal for?
Regardless of what the scale says, I’ve been feeling great, eating better, and just generally feeling slimmer. I was feeling really bloated for awhile, so it’s probably that, but I’m proud of myself for not only sticking to my workouts, but trying to very conscious of how I’m eating, but almost more importantly, how I’m snacking!
I started my period last week, I got some pretty crushing news on Friday, and yet no snacks were had. I didn’t console myself with chips and chocolate bars, and ice cream. I ate normally and was miserable for awhile because realistically I know it wouldn’t have made me feel better anyway.
I know I’m not so evolved to be past treats and emotional eating, but it still felt good to just be aware and be in control even at a time where everything felt so crazy.
On another note, I’m pretty much in the process of sealing the deal for my first paid writing job. Like, I’ve been talking to the publisher, and he’s sending me the contributor’s package tomorrow. It’s still really early, but this is a pretty huge deal.
ANDDDDD lastly, the other day, a girl at work and I were talking about our bodies and she say’s “You’ve got a nice body though! You’ve almost got a latino body. You’ve got curves, but you are definitely not fat.” This girl is so sweet, and though it sort of came out weird, I really appreciated it. I’ve always been a little obsessed with the thought of how people perceive me, and that because we are limited to one perspective of ourselves, it’s difficult to understand how people actually see us sometime.
Its so stupid that almost 50lbs later, I needed to hear someone tell me that I wasn’t fat, but I did.